Saturday, September 11, 2010


So my little guy has started kindergarten. It is a bitter sweet moment for me. I feel like just yesterday we were walking off a plan from China holding my hand a sooooo unsure of what was going on around him. Now, he walked up to his teacher with his back pack on not holding my hand and very sure of himself. He turned around once, to give me a wave and walked into school.

I know I should be happy that he is adjusted and ready for this next chapter of his life and I am happy, but I want to hold on to just a little piece of that little shy boy who still needed me to make it o.k.

Next week he needs to start after care, I am already having aniexty of him walking out of school and not seeing me and having to go across the street to the after care program. I don't know how I am going to explain this to him.

Here are a few pictures of my little guy.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

I'M BACK!!!!

I have come to realize how important it is to document our family journey. Looking back at all my old post is so wonderful.......

Can't go back and make up for it but I can move forward and continue.....



Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Neglecting my Blog

I've been a very bad blogger lately. I am going to try to maintain this site much better. Tonight I will upload pictures, I have so many that are not on here.

Tonight we are going to back cookies, I am going to try two new receipes I found on a fellow blogger site. Wish us luck, they seem easy enough.

Owen had his left ear tube replaced on Friday and happy to report he is doing well. No issues at all, we also both got our H1N1 vaccine over the weekend and no side effects so far, except for the occasional snort that I seem to make! LOL

More updates to follow, super busy at work but really wanting to get this back on track.

Monday, September 21, 2009


Maybe not just today, but for a few weeks now. I am not sure why it started but I have become very sad that Owen is going to be an only child and that I will not have anymore babies. I know that I am very lucky to have Owen and that should be enough but I am having so many emotions. I am sad that he will be an only child, I am sad that someday Bob and I won't be here and who will he have? I am sad that I will never again change diapers, have a first day of Pre K or first words. I am sad.

I know that not all siblings are close as they get older, my husband and his sister are perfect examples of this, they don't speak. But as a parent I would do whatever I could to be sure that they were close and that they understand that in the later years they are really going to need eachother. A better example is my sister and me. We are very different, have nothing in common and not sure if we weren't sisters that we would be friends, but she is my sister and we are friends and there wouldn't be anything that could make me not speak to her again. I am going to need that relationship later in my life. My son will not have this opportunity. That makes me sad.

Someone posted on another site a statement that made me a little angry today, she said "It's easy to become a mother but not easy to be a mother" I disagree, I spent 10 years, a lot of money, a lot of paperwork, a lot of tears and traveled half way around the world to be a mother, it was not easy. And because of that I won't be a mother to another child. So not any part of that was easy.

I know this feeling will pass, but for now I am going to allow myself to be sad for what I won't have but know that there is so much to be happy for what I have.

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Grandma passed away!

My grandma passed away this morning, she was 89 years old.

I have mixed emotions right now, she was sick, in pain and ready to go and for those reasons I am relieved for her that she will no longer have to endure that. But she was still my grandma and the only grandparent I ever knew. And although she had her ways, I loved her very much and I know that she loved me and truly loved my son.

So today, I remember a beautiful women who forever will be in my heart and know that she is happy with her daughter, my wonderful Aunt Marie and her husband, my grandfather who I unfortuantly never knew.

Good bye Grandma, we love you and already miss you!

Tuesday, August 04, 2009


Owen has a new girlfriend, it's Cindy Bear from Yogi Bear Jellystone Campground. LOL

We've gone camping there twice, I each time he gets more and more excited about seeing Yogi, Cindy and Boo Boo.

I just LOVE seeing him smile.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009


Today is Bob's 45th Birthday!!! I can't believe so much time has gone by!!

Happy Birthday to a GREAT husband and a FANTASTIC father!!! Owen and I love you SO MUCH!


Monday, July 13, 2009


Yesterday was my dad's 67th birthday! He has been through so much this past year, he fought prostate cancer, a bout of depression, and even panic attacks. None of which you would have ever expected to see my dad go through if you knew him. He is the rock of our family, the problem solver, the one person who could fix anything, yet we've found ourselves trying to fix him.

Owen loves his Papa, and Papa seriously loves Owen. I love to watch them together it is a special bond.

So, just when we think our superman has come out on top and has turned the corner we get more bad news. He has been complaining about a pain in his breast. We've all been taking it lightly but he really has pain and so he went to the doctor today.....He has to go for a mamorgram. Apparently there is a mass and they need to do more testing to see what it is. How could this be??? We have breast cancer in our family, my Aunt Marie died of breast cancer, my mom, sister and I go for our yearly mamorgrams to be proactive and catch anything early, but we NEVER thought that our father would have to be concerned about this.

I am sad, I just don't know how much one more man is suppose to endure? How much is one family suppose to endure?

I don't want my daddy to be sick anymore, I want my loving, free spirit, funny daddy back.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

I just can't seem to find the time that I used to for the blog. It's not from a lack of interest it's just that Owen consumes all of my time. Between Speech Therapy and OT Therapy, work, birthday parties, playdates, etc. I just can't keep up.

Owen has made so many milestones, we are fully potty trained, he speech is amazing it's clear and full sentances most of the time. He can now spell his name and write it all by himself, he knows all his shapes, colors, abc, and numbers. When you leave him he says I love you and i miss you, it's the sweetest thing. His favorite shows are WOW WOW WUZZBY, Backyardigans and the Wonder Pet's and still LOVES ELMO but we've crossed over to big boy interest now as well like Dinosaures, Monsters and Cars.

I can not believe that in 3 short months my little guy is going to be a BIG FOUR, and in September he is going to Pre-K. Is this really possible?? It feels like yesterday that we were waiting to travel and bring him home.

When Owen was placed in our hands he was a shy, quite, baby. He has transformed into a Outspoken, Friendly Boy. He has many friends in Daycare, when he arrives most kids are already there and they all call out to him "Owen's Here, YEAH" It's so cute to see and makes me very proud that my boy is popular, that even though he is still behind many of the kids at his age level he is able to keep up, make friends and be one of the crowd. That warms my heart.

This morning Bob and I had a conversation about Owen's birth mother, we talk about her often but this morning was a saddness of what she has lost, looking at him and knowing that when I look into his beautiful eyes I am really looking into the eyes of a women that I could never know, I could never say Thank you and more importantly let her know that her little boy, our little boy is doing wonderful, he is a well adjusted happy boy.

I am going to try my best to keep this blog more up to date!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Owens First Dentist appointment


Hope you all had a great mothers day!!! I certainly did, thanks to a wonderful women half a world away in China. THANK YOU, birth mother for giving me the honor of raising our son!!! You would be so proud of him!!!

The three of us spent the day getting ready for our first camping trip in our new pop up. Everytime I think we have everything we need to make another trip to walmart or target. And I still think we will get to the campground and be missing something.

I've been a little behind with posting and adding pictures, I blame this on Face Book, it has taken over my life. LOL

I've added a few pictures of Owen, I have a lot more to add and will in the next couple of days. I've finally figured out how to get the pictures of our camera and on to the laptop. This laptop is not as easy to download from.

I also wanted to say CONGRATUALTIONS to Joni, John and Sofia on their wonderful news of a 2nd daughter and a new sister!!! We are so happy for you!!