BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS AND OTHER STUFF

I hope everyone had a very merry Christmas!!! Bob and I had the best Christmas ever!!! We spent the entire weekend with my parents in PA. Owen had a wonderful time with his Nana and Papa and his cousin Matthew! I love watching him interact with my family, when we first get there he is cautious but once he settles in there is no stopping him. He even warmed up to my parents dog Katy, yesterday he actually touched her. LOL

When we got home Owen's certificate of citizenship was in the mailbox, this Christmas couldn't get any better!!! Getting that piece of paper just made everything perfect.

I will definitely post pictures of the weekend once I get a chance to download the pictures, I first have to find the computer under all the presents our little guy received. Thank goodness for our spare bedroom on the first floor of the house, it has officially become the playroom. I really don't know what we would do if we didn't have that room. Bob and I would have to move out and just let Owen live there with all his things.

NOT GETTING EASIER!

Well, it's week three of Owen being in daycare if you count the "phase in week" and things are still pretty much the same. Today I drop him off and Ms. Ester says "it's amazing for a little guy who doesn't speak he really understands things" of course I said what do you mean he doesn't speak???? Apparently in the three weeks that Owen has been there he hasn't said much if anything at all and yesterday was the first day he actually smiled at her. Now, this upsets me because when I call during the day they tell me he is fine, having fun, playing, napping, etc. They never mentioned that my son isn't saying anything or smiling!!! I understand that he doesn't speak in sentences and what he does say is often not clear however, but he does say hi, bye, out, mama, luv you. I asked her if he was saying any of these words and she said no. I explained to her that this is not my kid, at home you can't stop him for talking and he's laughing and dancing all the time. Shouldn't someone have mentioned this to me?

I am very upset about this, the only thing that was making this o.k. for now was that I thought that once I left and he stopped crying (this is what they tell me) that he was having fun with the other kids, playing, making crafts and laughing. Now I find out that he is not saying anything, he isn't laughing and plays by himself most of the day! How much worse can this get. I am so upset. When I got to work I called our agencies post adoption services and left a message for the director asking her to call me and see if there is anything I should be doing for him.

Does anyone have any suggestions?? Should I be doing something for him?? I am very worried about my little guy.

SO HOW ARE WE DOING?????

Not very good! This has been a rough week. Owen started his first full week at daycare and I started my first week back to work. Neither one of us is handling this very well. Tuesday he started crying once we were inside the center and I was getting ready to leave, Wednesay he started crying outside the center before we went in, Thursday he started crying at home when I was putting his jacket on, and today he started crying at 2:00 a.m. when he woke from a nightmare and was still crying at 8:00 a.m. when I had to leave him.

Yesterday we had horrible weather, I left work at 2:45 p.m. to make sure I got home in time to pick him up, well that didn't happen. At 4:30 p.m. I was still nowhere close to picking him up. I was in panic mode so I called my neighbor and asked if they would get him for me. Of course they didn't even question it, they just went and got my little boy!!! I love my neighbors!!!

While I was out of the office they decided that I needed another person to work for. She is single, not married and has no children, do I need to say more?? She has no concept of having to get home and pick up a child from daycare! I am schedule to work until 3:00 p.m. on Thursdays and Fridays so yesterday with the bad weather our office closed at 4:00 p.m. instead of 5:00 p.m., so I left 15 minutes earlier then I was suppose too, this morning I came into the office and had an email from my new boss asking me to notify her early in the day when I am going to alter my schedule, my email wasn't very friendly back and basically said I left 15 minutes earlier then suppose to, and since the rest of the office left an hour earlier then suppose to I don't think it's an issue.

With all that said, we came to a very important decision one that I didn't think I would ever make! I am going to resign from my job and be a stay at home mom to Owen! One part of me is very excited about this new journey and another part is sad. I have been with my company 10 years and with my current boss 8 years. I like the people I work for, I like my job but I love my son and need to do what is best for him and our family! So, after the new year I will give my notice and be a full-time mommy to Owen!

DAYCARE SO FAR

Well, today is day 2 of "phase in week" at the daycare center! Yesterday Owen was there for 1 hour and when I left was crying but when I picked him up he was sitting on Ms. Ester's lap reading a book. Of course, when he saw me he started to cry and couldn't run quick enough to me. Today is a different story. When I brought him to the classroom one of the other children pushed Owen down and he started to cry, not off to a good start. Ms. Ester quickly picked Owen up and distracted him and he was o.k. for now. I spoke with Ms. Ester for a few moments and turned around to leave and not make a big deal about it, well my little guy saw me leaving and got HYSTERICAL! I know I did the right thing and kept walking out but I have to tell you my heart was breaking. I sat in front of the center and cried for 20 minutes and then got myself together to call inside and see if he was o.k. They said he was fine, but would they tell me if he wasn't????? I am not so sure.

I keep telling myself that I have to do this, that I have to go back to work even if it's only for a short time but seeing him so upset just breaks my heart. I don't know how I am going to be able to leave him there and be so far away from him. Right now I am only 5 minutes away, but once I go to work both Bob and I are an hour away. I am not o.k. with that.

I'm going to go have a cup of hot tea, cry a little bit and then go get my little boy. His mommy misses him.

Here is a picture of Heide, me and Owen. Trisha took a great picture of the three of us!

Of course Owen is trying to run away so he can play with Trisha!

OWEN'S PLAY DATE

One of my very best friends came over for a play date Saturday. I've known Heide since we are about 12 years old. I am God Mother to her daughter Trisha (she's inside the playhouse)

Owen had a great time with Trisha, and she was great with him.

They left while Owen was napping, when he woke up he ran around the house looking for them.

We definitely need to get together again soon!

OWENS FIRST SNOW!

Saturday night I went to Target and bought Owen his first pair of snow pants preparing for our first snow fall. I am so happy I had them, he got use out of them on Sunday helping Daddy wipe off the cars and shovel the driveway.

He really didn't know what to make of it and I am not sure he was having too much fun but at least I got a picture.

Before I get emails about how he should be wearing mittens, he has them but refuses to wear them. As fast as I put them on that is how fast they come off.