OH MY GOD!!!!!

Just when I think I am down in the dumps and feeling sorry for myself something good happens.

I just received an email that Adele at blessedkids received five digital photos of Owen from the orphange. I can't believe it......She emailed me and wanted to know if I wanted them!! Is she kidding me, OF COURSE I WANT THEM!!! I can not wait to see his little face. I am sure he has changed a lot since his referral pictures.

I was all set to go to bed with a 1/2 gallon of ice cream and feel sorry for myself but now I am so excited I couldn't possibly go to bed.

I have to believe that my bonbon has something to do with this, I know that she was such a happy loving puppy that she would not want me crying and being sad because she wasn't here. She would be the first one to jump in my lap and give me kisses all over my face when she saw me crying!!! Since she can't send me kisses she sent me Owen.

I will keep everyone posted!!

EMOTIONAL NIGHT......

I had a really bad night, for some reason all the emotions I've been holding in about my Bonnie overwhelmed me last night. I've been trying so hard to focus on all the good things in my life and preparing for our son. But last night I lost it.

I was feeling sad for all the things she is going to miss out on, the play time in the yard, going to the sprinkler at the park, etc. These are all the things we did with Bonnie and were really looking forward to doing them with Owen and Bonnie. I think the breaker was that I found our christmas card from last year and it was of Bob, me and Bonnie. I had already been talking about this years Christmas card and what Bonnie and Owen would be wearing.

I went from being so happy about the shower, our home visit, Owen's home coming to feeling sad and crying.

I know this will pass but for now, I miss Bonnie and going to allow myself to feel this way.

CARE PACKAGE, BABY SHOWER, HOMEVISIT, OH MY!

So much has been going on and I haven't had a free minute to update my blog....BAD BLOGGER!

First, Owens care package!! IT HAS LANDED at it's first destination which is the service we are using inside China to ship our package through domestic mail!! It arrived there on Saturday and I received an email Sunday letting me know that they would be shipping it to the orphange on Monday priority mail! Which means our little guy should be receiving it hopefully in the next day or two! I will definitely post once I know he got it! We are already talking about what to put into our next box.

Now the baby shower! OH MY, I don't know where to begin! It was GREAT! I got everything I could possibly want or need from our family and friends. They out did themselves. Everyone kept saying that "he is special" because Bob and I have waited for so long for him and because we are flying half a world away to get him! I would have to agree! He is definitely our very special gift and couldn't ask for anything else!

Bob read the poem that we put on our favor boxes "until forever" and he cried. It was very touching. I felt sad for him, he had only one aunt attend the shower, the rest where my family and our friends. I know he felt bad about it.

Now, the home visit! Our social worker came out to the house yesterday to do our updated home visit for INS. We are in the process of completing the paper work to send in for our finger printing, child abuse clearance and medicals. I can't believe we are doing that all over again, although this time does seem alot easier. Our social worker (did I mention how much Bob and I like her) loved the house and LOVED his bedroom. She couldn't believe how great it looked and couldn't believe all the gifts we received from the shower. She said "I know your son is going to be loved so much" and "Bob and I are going to make great parents" That meant so much to both of us to hear her say that. She said "I'll see you in a few months when your little one is home" I hope she is right and it's a few months.

Bob and I went to Babies R Us after she left to return a few things and get another gate for the bottom of our stairs. It felt so good walking around Babies R Us as a family waiting for their baby, instead of being there only to buy someone else a gift.

So, that is pretty much it! It's been a crazy three days but I wouldn't have changed it one bit. I will post pictures as soon as someone sends me them, I took none!

WE'RE GETTING CLOSER......

Owen is a little closer to getting our presents, the care package is now in Shenzhen, China!

HIP HIP HOORAY!

I feel like I am 5 years old again tracking Santa Clause! What a great feeling!

TRACKING OUR CARE PACKAGE

Well, so far our package has made it to Anchorage Alaska! Not so bad considering it's less then 24 hours since it left New York.

I can't wait for the update to say it's in CHINA!!!!

THE PACKAGE HAS BEEN SENT....

We sent our care package out to Owen today. I had to call fedex for assistance in filling out the online airbill. I told the customer service representative that it was easier to complete my INS paper work then it was to complete this form. We both laughed.

In our box is a Build A Bear with our recorded voices in his hands. One hand says "mommy and daddy love you very much" in my voice and in the other hand it says "mommy and daddy can't wait to bring you home" in bobs voice. I am not ashamed to say we both cried when we did our recordings and told everyone in the store who would listen our story. Also in the box is a "who loves baby" photo album with our pictures, the house, his room and our yard, a disposable camera (hoping they will take pictures of him) candy for the director and nannies and a toy. It was so much fun to put this box together. We used blessedfamily to actually ship our package once it's in China and she has been great working with me. I am hoping to send one more package to him before we travel to bring Owen home.

I can't wait to track it and see where it is and when he actually gets it....

THANKS FOR ALL THE SUGGESTIONS

Thanks for all the great suggestions for our care package to Owen. We decided to go to Build A Bear tonight and make him a bear with our voices recorded on the voicebox, then we will go to Babies R Us and get the "who loves baby" photo album and include six pictures of Bob and I, our home and his bedroom. We will also include a blanket with our scent on it and goodies for the orphanages staff, etc.

This has been such an exciting process for us!

I AM SOOOO EXCITED...............

We just got word from our agency that we can send a care package to Owen! Our agency representative in China checked with Owen's institute and the director gave the go ahead to send him a small package!!!

This makes it more real for me. The director of the institute knows that our little guy in China has a family, they love him already and they want to send him presents.......CAN IT GET ANY BETTER THEN THAT!

Does anyone have suggestions as to what I should send?? I will of course send pictures of Bob and me, of our home, of his beautiful room waiting for him and of his nana and papa and cousin, I was also thinking a toy and a blanket with our smells on it and candy for the other children at the institute, am I missing anything??? Suggestions would be greatly appreciated.

Have I mentioned how much Bob and I LOVE OUR SON!

UPDATED HOME VISIT......

Just received a call from our Social Worker, she is coming July 23rd to do our home visit. We are very excited, she hasn't been to this house and it is so much nicer and bigger then our other home and the baby room is completely done in our camping theme! It is just so cute.

And even better is that my shower is on Saturday, July 21st so we will have all our baby stuff set up! Of course I will be in panic mode putting everything away on Sunday! LOL

Making progress, even if it's at a snails pace.

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY

Hope everyone has a fun and safe day!

BABIES BABIES BABIES!!!

This is so exciting!!! Saturday I met two girlfriends for lunch. Let me back up a little bit and go back. Last year I accidentally found a blog about another couple adopting from China and we started to chat via email. She told me that one of her Yahoo groups were meeting in NYC for lunch and invited me to come. Bob and I were so excited to be able to meet other couples in the same situation as us and couldn't wait to go. It turned out that only two other couples beside Bob and me were able to make it. So off to little Italy we went and we found life long friends in our newly formed group.

So, fast forward to this weekend. We decide to have a girls day and do lunch and a little shopping. So we met at Cheesecake Factory (can you say yummy) and was it a GREAT lunch. We had an announcement of a pregnancy and another announcement of a referral of a baby boy! And of course my old news of our OWEN!! We had so much to celebrate! It was awesome and can't wait for our next get together.....I have a feeling there will be three little one's running around!!

CONGRATULATIONS TO US ALL!!!